blood results

(copied and pasted from a forum I 'live' in)

Having finally got my blood test results today-it was a hormone check-

Testosterone and Prolactin were fine; LH and FSH didn't really matter since my menstrual cycle is so screwed up; but Oestrogen is low.
I am being referred to the Gynaecologist.
It could take 3-4 weeks.
If I had had my results in teh week after the test I could be half fucking way though those 3/4 weeks now!!!

Googling low oestrogen levels is no good cos it brings up a load of stuff about menopause and early-menopause and I am not going down that route now. I can't think about the possible implications of that. And osteoporosis which my Nan suffers from. Something else to not think about.

I don't know what it means, apart from the whole not ovulating thing, so I don't know what to think. And I really want a hug but my husband's not home until wednesday and I feel like shit cos of this cold. I have never felt so exhausted from just a cold.

So more wait and see. The only upside is the Gynae. referral. Another round of doctors and hospital and tests. Fan-bloody-tastic.

I thought discovering my Hypertension and the referral to Addenbrookes and the trips and tests for that was bad. This has the potential to be infinitely worse. I feel defective. A woman who can't do the thing women are supposed to do. Granted this may be way too early to be thinking like that, and they may be able to fix it with some simple, quick way. But what if they can't? How would I face up to the knowledge that I can't do the one thing I really want to do? How will my husband feel if his wife can't give him children? I wish, hope and dream that I am being melodramatic right now and that things will work out how I want them too.

Make a wish for me. XX