Renewed hope...

I am on Cycle Day 2 today!!!!

Yes, my period started yesterday!! 155 days since the last began. It was so light yesterday, I didn't believe it was for real, then I was so happy to wake up with painful stomach cramps this morning. All the tears and bloated feelings from last week make sense now. Fingers crossed this is the start of a return to normality and that we get good news soon.

Oh, and I am still waiting for my Gynae. appointment.

Slight relief

Turns out, if I am pregnant, or due while he's away, hubby's deployment will be delayed until baby is a month old. Not ideal, but better than going back on the pill!!
Now fingers are crossed that I hear from the Gynae. soon.
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Afghanistan.....

My beloved husband is being sent to Afghanistan for 4 months in november. Spare me the spiel about it being his job, because I don't hear it. I really, really don't want this. I will spend 4 months worried sick, jumping every time the phone rings, or there's an unexpected knock at the door.

Plus it throws this TTC business up in the air. I could cope with the first half of pregnancy while he is away, but not the second. I want him home for the birth of his baby. *sigh* I guess I will have to wait and see what the Gynaecologist says. I'd even go back on the pill (though it kills me to say so) and come off in september. Last year was so hard, and this year will be harder, and to voluntarily delay having a baby? Even for the best.... It's breaking my heart.

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Why did I do that? I confided in an old school friend. Someone I haven't seen in years. Not even a female. A guy. The guy that I adored all through high school, right up to about 3 weeks before I started seeing my husband. I'm still fond of him, or maybe I am fond of my memories of him? I think you always keep a special place for your first love, even if it was unrequited!! Feel a bit silly though. Maybe it's because we shared a lot in high school, or because it is easier to off load things online... Ah well. I can't 'un-say' it now, I just hope I haven't scared him off staying in touch!!

My beloved will be home late tomorrow night! Which means I should be finishing off the tidying and sorting out, not playing on here. oops!

Meh.

'Meh' is how I am feeling. One of the major downsides to being on my own- too much thinking time.

But, my darling husband should be home early next week! This is fantastic. Also, because I worked out today that it is coating a small fortune for me to ring him! So I am trying to concentrate on this happiness. He was going to be delayed until 17th march, this is after they cancelled his original flight, then they next one he was on, but now they are paying for a civilian flight home.

My alpha rat bit me on wednesday. He's not vicious, I think I just got to him at the wrong moment. But my finger is sore and still a bit swollen, and I have antibiotics because it may be infected and they make me feel bleugh. He bit my husband not too long ago though, so Geoff is on his last warning.

We will be moving this year. If hubby can't get a posting at Aldergrove near Belfast, it will be Akrotiri, in Cyprus, in august. This scares me a little, but it's exciting too! And much better this, than he goes to Afghanistan or the Falklands for 6 months. I really don't have the correct emotional temperament to be a military wife. I suppose it will get easier as the years go by, but like so many, I am hoping for that life-changing lottery win!