CD12

So we start moving on to what may be the interesting part of the cycle. Fingers crossed I ovulate and we 'catch' the egg!
So broody, it's starting to hurt again. Still, we'll get there.

I think it was seeing the nieces over the bank holiday weekend. They are such lovely girls, and I am really looking forward to bringing another child into such a wonderful, loving family that my husband has.

Sightly different with my family, I love them all (I think), but I don't always like them/what they do. I feel bad that I am not closer to my parents and sisters, and that we spend more time with Husband's family then with my Mum, but we are both more relaxed with his family. I think it was my upbringing (quite strict), and my parents' (well My Mum's, not sure about my Dad) faith that places the constraints. My family's got messier as I've got older, it's adding to the distance I'm not-entirely-intentionally placing between us. I have troubles enough of my own without being involved in theirs. Gah, that sounds so selfish and horrible. But I can't do it, I know from experinece that if I take on too many worries, it'll take over. Especially with November coming up.

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Well, my period lasted 5 days, and was a lot lighter than I'd expected. I hope that's not a bad sign....

Husband is going to Afghanistan on 29th November. That probably means he'll leave home on 28th. So there is now less time of him being at home that what he'll be away. I am not coping well already. I make jokes about his 'desert holiday', but every time I think about it, I feel sick.

Added to which, I seem to have post-menstrual tension. I am irritable, head-achey, and constantly on the edge of tears. Really not fair.

Still have my fingers crossed for this cycle though. As always.

CD1. mostly positive!

That's right folks, after a 42 day cycle, and the day after my 23rd birthday, dear old aunt flo arrived!

Painlessly at first, but The sicky feelings, back ache and stomach cramps have been increasing all day. Pre-pill these would only last the first day, so I hope I am ok tomorrow, as we are going to Mother-In-Law's in the afternoon.

But I had a fabulous birthday yesterday. Husband is wonderful, and made it all about me! I got brekfast in bed, then he brought my presents up. I had a nice long bath that morning, then at lunch I said, "I kinda fancy Macdonalds". So that's where we went! Plus we got me a birthday cake, and Mario Party 8 for the Wii. We had fun playing that in the afternoon, then cooked roast lamb together. Plus I had the wonderful surprise of a beautiful bunch of flowers from a good friend that I have not actually met IRL. Really made my day.

And i am very glad AF didn't arrive to spoil my day!

So fingers crossed that this is the lucky cycle!

Oh, adn on a side note, I went for a blood pressure check this week. I've lost 11kg since I saw the nurse 6 weeks ago, and my BP is going down. :-) So, good things.

CD38

Nothing. No change. No signs. No hope even.

Feel shitty.

Second month of higher dose Metformin, and still waiting for AF to show.

CD32

No signs of the bitch. Slightly achey boobs, but I think that may be the result of Wii Fit jogging without a properly supporting bra! Ooops!

I guess I am resigned for now. Which means that later tonight, or tomorrow after I see the doctor, I will get hysterically upset.

Why can't this be just a little bit easier?

CD 31

Had another negative on friday, so I wasn't just testing too early on wednesday. Crap.
All symptoms have gone, , not even got PMS ones. It's not fair.

Been a small collection of BFNs amongst a group of my friends, it's not fair on any of us.

Just got to wait for dear old Aunty Flo to arrive now, the bitch.