CD28

Every time I sell a pregnancy test to a woman, I try, discreetly, to look at their face. And I wonder, is this test for you? What are you hoping for? Have you been trying month after month, waiting for that little line? Or are you hoping and praying that it is negative? It's helpful to remember that other will be going through the same thing. But I feel desperately sad, even a little angry, (even though I've been there) when I see the 14-18 year olds come in, embarrassed about buying a test.

I'm seeing babies and bumps everywhere again. One of our regular customers brought her baby girl in for the first time this week. Absolutely gorgeous little thing, big brown eyes looking up at the 3 or 4 women gazing at her, all coo-ing! And it really tugged at my heart. When I first came off the pill, I really thought we would have had our baby by now. I thought I'd be taking my own baby in to work to show off, planning their first christmas.... Instead, I am still waiting for my menstrual cycle to regulate (CD28 and no symptoms of anything), and planning my first christmas (and had better be the last!) without Husband.

Why me? Why us? It's just so damn unfair. For eveytone who's been at this TTC game for more than a year. Why are there no simple answers?